9-24-07

Hey Sweetie:

Well, this morning Jane woke up at like 7 am (which is unusual for her) and she actually woke up before Maren did, which is the first time that Jane has done that in Maren's whole life! Crazy huh? For the past couple of mornings Maren has been waking up for the first time at like 7:30 and 8:00 am and it has been wonderful!

Tonight we had our ward FHE deployment dinner which my mom was in charge of because she is the compassionate service leader. Basically, it was just a potluck dinner for all of the families in the ward that have a member of the family who is either deployed, on active duty, or will be deployed soon. It was fun and a good chance to get to know other military wives. I'm trying to find out information to help me see what our future might be like and it looks good so far. I think it's going to be such a fun adventure! Also, your three girls wore our new t-shirts so that everyone would know why we were there. Because “My Daddy (Husband) Defends Freedom in the US Army!” The girls look so cute in their shirts and I got some pictures that I will send you as soon as I get them printed.

I got two awesome letters from you today and now I know why I didn't get very much mail from you last week, because you wrote several days worth and then mailed them because you were so busy. Should I expect the weeks to go more like that now since you are so busy? That is totally fine if that is the case, I just need to know what to expect then I get less disappointed if I don't get a letter. I was so excited in your letter when you told me about being an expert marksman. I am SO proud of my man! I really hope that you get the award for the personal physical test as well. I know how hard you have been working on that and I know that you can do it. I can't wait to see you in your Class A's. I also liked when you talked about wrestling in your barracks and choke holds and teaching our sons how to fight. Let's also teach our girls how to fight too (especially since that's all we have so far) because we don't want them to be clueless and vulnerable either. I love life with you Brad!

I have my first window washing job this weekend. On Saturday I am going to wash Sharon Thornton's windows. She lives in this building and I've washed her windows before. She thinks I'm pretty great and she thinks our girls are adorable. She's a sweet lady... Anyway, I think it will be fun to wash windows again and it will be fun to get a little extra cash. Also, if I spend a little time on this window washing thing I would definitely win the Lindorf Challenge :)

The lyrics for today are Anna Nalick's "Breathe (2 am)":

"2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake. Can you help me unravel my latest mistake? I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season. Yeah we walk through the doors. So accusing their eyes, like they have any right at all to criticize. Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable. And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button girl, so cradle your head in your hands. And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe, just breathe.

May he turn 21 (in your case 24) on the base at Fort Bliss (in your case Fort Sill). Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist. Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year. Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while, but, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles. Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable. And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button boys, so cradle your head in your hands. And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe, just breathe.

'There's a light at each end of this tunnel,' you shout. 'Cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out. These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again if you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song (in my case writing a letter). If I get it all down on paper, its no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to. And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud. And I know that you'll use them, however you want to.

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable. And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button now. Sing it if you understand. And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe, just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe."

When I was in UT last month I bought a coupon Timpview card to support Anna Marie. It's a great date card and I wanted to send you a copy of what's on it so that you can get excited about the dates that we are going to go on when we're together again. Speaking of dates, I can't wait to kiss you again! I'm having a hard time remembering what it is like to kiss you. One kiss that does stand out in particular is that one time that you helped me to bed and I was like totally asleep. Then you were just kissing me good night and you got a little carried away. That was such an amazing kiss! Then we got a little carried away :)

I just got this quote in an email, “God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.” The journey is going to be hard, God never said it would be easy, He just promises that it will be worth it. Here's more from the email, “Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, there will always be sunshine, after the rain.... Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall; But God's always ready, to answer your call.... He knows every heartache, sees every tear, a word from His lips, can calm every fear... Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night, But suddenly vanish, dawn's early light...

The Savior is waiting, somewhere above, to give you His grace, and send you His love..."

Well I guess that's all for now. Have you got my package yet? Did you get a hard time from your Drill Sargent about it? I hope not...I love you sweetie!

Love-Jess