9-03-07

Hey Brad:

Hey sweetie! How are you doing? It was so good to talk to you two times on Sunday, I felt SO lucky! I really liked that you were laughing and joking and sounding like your old self. It made me feel so good, it helped me feel like you were doing well and that's all I want. I also loved getting a picture of you from Sister Ivey, we sent you a copy in your birthday package. I'm sorry that I cried on the phone when you first called, I didn't mean to alarm you. I was just so happy to talk to you and hear your voice, it brings me such comfort. It also seemed like a long time since we were last able to talk even though it had only been a week. I was able to hang out with Steph today which was fun. We went to BYU and visited Mer on her first day of class. Then we went to Alysses's Bridal and I got to help Steph with her final wedding dress fitting, which was fun because I got to see her in her dress and help her pick out veils and stuff. Anyway, while we were hanging out, I talked to Steph about how much I miss you. But then I figured out something while I was trying to explain it to her. Even though I miss you more than anything I'm not sad; I'm actually really happy. I mean, I have my sad days, but for the most part I'm doing really well. I know that it is because I feel of your love for me every day and Heavenly Father is buoying me up every day. He is making this whole experience easier for me, and I hope He is doing the same for you.

I went night swimming last night to get in my laps for the day. I got in about 9:30 and after only two laps I got a little freaked out because it was dark and I was alone so I went and got Anna Marie and she came outside and hung out with me while I did my laps. Anyway, while I was taking a rest to catch my breath in between some of my laps, I was floating on my back in the water and looking at the stars and I thought of the song Some Where Out There. The stars were so beautiful and I couldn't help but think that maybe we could be looking at the same stars because we were out there under the same big sky. But then I remembered that you had been in bed for a couple of hours already...

So, the lyrics for today are from An American Tail, “Somewhere Out There”:

“Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight, someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight. Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer that we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there.And even though I know how very far apart we are, it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star. And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby, it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky. Somewhere out there, if love can see us through, then we'll be together somewhere out there, out where dreams come true. And even though I know how very far apart we are, it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star. And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby, it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky. Somewhere out there if love can see us through, then we'll be together somewhere out there, out where dreams come true.”

On Sunday evening we had a girl night with Anna Marie, Jane, Amy, Maren, your mom, and me. We made chocolate chip cookies (that I wish I could have sent to you in your package), watched “Kate and Leopold,” and painted our toenails. We even painted Jane's toenails and even though she hated it and cried the whole time, her toes look so cute and I think she thinks so too because she looks at her piggies all the time and tries to figure out why they look different.

We were able to mail off your birthday package today and your parents paid to over-night it to you so you should get it by 10:30 am tomorrow, on your birthday. I think you are really going to like it. I wasn't able to do what I did on your mission for your birthday, but I sent out an email to lost of our family members and some of our friends reminding them that it was your birthday and asking them to mail you a letter or email me a message for you and I would print it up for you. So I'm hoping that lots of people mailed you a letter. I got several emails that I printed up and included in your package. I also made you a card from the girls with their foot prints that I think that you are really going to love. I also included a new Pin City calling card for you that's really cheap with lots and lots of minutes so feel free to use it as much as you can. I hope that you get a good score on your test this week so that you get 30 minutes of talk time.

I got your letter today with your picture of the Rothwell tower and letting me know that you finally got some of my letters. I'm so glad! I also wanted you to know that I haven't gotten the email from them about family day. If you could follow up on that, that would be great because I want to book those tickets soon. I'm proud of you and your PT goals, I know you can do it. I'm glad you've finally gotten some new pictures and I'm sending you pictures in every letter. I think it's cool that your Drill Sargent thinks our girls are cute. I just wanted to let you know that on Sunday I wore my brown skirt that I bought only a few months after we were married (so pre-pregnancy) and it fit really well. Your girl is getting in shape. It feels good and I'm pretty excited for you to see me next month. I don't look way different, so don't get unrealistic expectations, I'm just getting toned up and starting to be able to fit into my old clothes. I think it has been fun to take this opportunity while you are away to get my body back. I hope that it is a good surprise for you. Anyway, I'll give the girls a squeeze for you, they love you so much! I love you with all my heart and soul and I can't wait until we can be together again.

Love-Jess