9-13-07

My Dearest Bradley:

Hey sweetie! How are you doing? I hope very well. I think that you finished your camp out today, I hope it was fun. Also, I just got the email from Fort Sill with a bunch of information in it. I found out that you can expect to go onto Fort Bliss within 24 hours of your graduation ceremony even if it will make you arrive earlier than your report date. So that information will help me book my flight to OK. I also found out from Sgt. Williamson that they can't project an AIT completion date until you start AIT because they have to be sure that you are going to graduate from boot camp first. A few days after you start AIT they will be able to tell you what day you should finish. So we'll just have to wait until then to book our cruise, but my dad said that would be ok. We should still be able to get a great cruise booked and we might even get a better deal on it since we're waiting till the last minute.

The lyrics for today are Celine Dion's “I Want You to Need Me”:

“I want to be the face you see when you close your eyes. I want to be the touch you need every single night. I want to be your fantasy and be your reality and everything between. I want you to need me, like the air you breathe. I want you to feel me in everything. I want you to see me in your every dream. The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you. I want you to need me like I need you.

I want to be the eyes that look deep into your soul. I want to be the world to you; I just want it all. I want to be your deepest kiss; the answer to your every wish. I'm all you ever need. I want you to need me, like the air you breathe. I want you to feel me in everything. I want you to see me in your every dream. The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you. I want you to need me like I need you.

And I need you more than you could know. And I need you to never, never let me go. And I need to be deep inside your heart. I just want to be everywhere you are.... I want you to need me, like the air you breathe. I want you to feel me in everything. I want you to see me in your every dream. The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you. I want you to need me like I need you.

I want to be the face you see when you close your eyes. I want to be the touch you need every single night. I want to be your fantasy and be your reality and everything between. I want you to need me like I need you, like I need you...”

I had the wonderful experience of going to the temple last night for our Ward Temple Night. My mom stayed home with the girls and my dad and I went to the Newport Beach Temple and did an endowment session. I haven't been to the temple since we went to the San Diego temple right before you left and it's exactly what I needed. I'm back on track now. I've been feeling a little off lately and had a lack of motivation and inspiration, but I really feel like I'm back and it feels good. My dad and I got to the temple early so we were able to do some initiatories. I felt the Spirit so strong and I probably cried a lot (surprise, surprise). Also, in the last part, there are some really cool promises about wearing your garments and keeping them sacred and keeping your temple covenants and I couldn't help but think of you. I'm so glad that we got special garments for you to wear to boot camp because we can't afford to not have them protecting you. Anyway, we then did a session and I again thought about you pretty much the whole time (I find myself doing that a lot). I just haven't been to the temple very many times without you and I want to keep it that way. I got to sit by this cute girl who just got married and this was her first time back to the temple since she received her own endowments. It was a sweet experience to help her with her clothes a little bit and kind of unofficially lead her through the session. Afterward we had a chance to talk and I could tell she was a little overwhelmed so I reassured her that it gets easier and better ever time and told her to just keep coming back. It was a cool experience overall.

Brad, I know sometimes you wonder why you are doing this at all, why we have to be apart, and why we are doing one of the hardest things that we have ever done. You have to try to remember that this is absolutely the right thing for our family right now. You are leading our family down a great road and I am so proud of you and so thankful for you. I really feel like I just couldn't ask for more in life than to have you as my husband, my friend, my soul mate. I know that this experience has made and will continue to make us stronger and make our marriage stronger. Our Savior is with us and He knows exactly how we are feeling and what we are going through. If we keep Him on our team and in our lives then there is nothing that we cannot accomplish. I know that this experience is teaching you great things and that it will be so worth it in the end. Even if the only real thing that gets accomplished is that you are able to totally overcome your trial forever, that would make all of this and anything else we might ever face worth it. Keep working hard, it makes the time go faster. I'm so proud of your goals and that you are achieving them. We will be together soon!

Love-Jess

P.S. In the email I got today from someone at Fort Sill says that I can send you packages with food in them once you are no longer in red phase. What do you think about that? In the email it said that white phase starts on September 16^th, just so you know.

P.P.S. The Office starts September 27^th just so you know...